Saturday, 30 July 2016

Don't fall in love with a vampire killer

The vampire killer: she wants quick, slick, simple answers; simple solutions to complex problems. 

And your black plastic, synthetic vampire queen. She won’t waste her time on you. She don’t care for you. She won’t give you the time of day. No time to think, to wonder, to create; to make something new from the old, worn-out things, or fashion something beautiful, wild and impractical like poetry or art or the songs you sing with your stupid, pointless guitar. She wants quick, slick, simple answers; simple solutions to complex problems. 

She wants a quick, slick, emotionless transaction; she means business; she wants speedy, efficient solutions she can use; to move forward, to get what she wants.

She measures you with a glance. She knows all she needs in a second. She looks you up and down, scans you with her laser-eye, and passes by. She’s a monster. She’s a machine. Unblinking, she makes her mind up, and moves on.

You are left naked, brutalized, barely breathing; all washed up and shivering in the shallows.

She doesn’t want you. She throws her head back and laughs. She’s an animal. She doesn’t want you; she doesn’t want you. You’re too old and slow, too inefficient.

Too many rough edges on him, impossible to smooth him out. So don’t waste your precious time; don’t waste your energy on repairs. Unwrap a fresh one. Fuck him good, fuck him up; and move on.

The killers have the best view because they have the best seats......


In the massive, polyphonic grandeur of the inhuman, electronic leadership chorus, we hear the voice of God from the tower of central surveillance... 


The killers have the best view because they have the best seats. And their views are the best views, the ruling views, the authority, the law. They watch; they rule; from high above the modern city.

They have the seats with the clearest view, and their gaze is extended by the science of the technocrats, the expert killers, and by the electric eye of central surveillance. We never see them, but we know they see us; they see everything.



Whilst we never ever see them, we do hear them. Or rather we hear them in our own voices, somehow writ-large, hugely amplified; inhumanly distorted and reassuringly crystal clear – a voice massively unfolded, differentiated, exploded into a million, multi-faceted shards of vibrant colour; and simultaneously amalgamated, enfolded, wrapped under enormous pressure, and seamlessly pleated into the common voice, the common sense. 

In the massive, polyphonic grandeur of the inhuman, electronic leadership chorus, we hear the voice of God from the tower of central surveillance. And each hears his own voice, his own thoughts; like the whole of the inside of his head is torn out and flashed onto the big screen; his conscience, his own personal Jesus, is thrown out there, naked for all to see. 


Everything that was inside is suddenly outside.

We will peel them with our metal knives: life in the modern city

And we will have machines for assessment, machines for learning, on top of our machines for living, here in our modern city.

He feels sick, his head is swimming, and just now he thinks he saw his heart try to punch itself out of his chest. The reason: yesterday, he nearly turned and walked – willingly - back into one of the central towers of the modern city, that five years ago nearly killed him.

He sees them every day; every day he walks around inside the walls –  nervous, taut and twitchy as a hunter, light-footing in the forest – but never ever does he stray close to the central tower, never ever step within the immediate range of the electric eye of central surveillance. He sees the management killers pass by. They come in a range of models: there is the default older male in black suit, automatic step and steely hair; eyeless in cool shades, like a glitch in the Matrix; and then there are the younger females, who sometimes pass for real humans; attractive young women, smart and sexy in crisp white shirts and tailored trousers; dark-haired blondes with tailored voices, who bling to designer time and smile before they kill. He wonders do they see him now, as he lounges all casual in soft shoes, stares absently into the near distance, tries a little too hard perhaps to remain below their radar. 


He sometimes stands toe to toe with them in the glass tower elevators; and he wonders if they can smell the outworld huddled masses on his shabby jacket and jeans. With any luck, as he operates beneath their radar, he also operates beneath their contempt; his outworld real, outlaw human odour no more discomforting, no more a threat than the trace of any outworld crawling creature. Given half a chance, of course, they would stub him to a pulpy stripe beneath a blind, efficient leather sole.

Careless of others – and that's killer competitors as much as contemptible real humans -  their very existence in the modern city crushes all hopes and dreams; all tenderness, anything gentle and kind vanishes with one click of a designer heel.

Meeting between a management killer and a real outlaw human. 

She hears the wind blow over dry leaves. You hear the scream of brakes, as the train pulls into Auschwitz.

He remembers the day the walls of the modern city closed around him. It was something like this. One minute he was strolling carelessly in bright sunshine; the next, a huge, black shadow fell across the ground and he was plunged into blackest night, as if a high cavern roof had suddenly snapped shut; trapping him and everyone else inside.


And we have all been stumbling around in the dark ever since; the book of the past has closed on us forever. Everything has changed. I don’t know north from south, east from west; I can’t tell which way is up.

The Money-God didn’t make himself known everywhere to everyone immediately. It was at work that O noticed the first subtle changes. He couldn’t remember his head of department, for example, ever being referred to as a ‘manager’ before; and he’d never even heard of a ‘line-manager’. For goodness sake, it made him think of steam-trains, shovels and oily rags. Metal things - cogs and wheels - and steam under pressure.

And lines, lines, lines. Straight-lines: Adorno's shortest distance between two people, as if they were points And soon, it was boxes, boxes, boxes. Boxes piled on top of other boxes. Hand in hand with Taylor and Ford, and Bauhaus, Le Corbusier’s Unite d’Habitation, Marseilles.

And we will have machines for assessment, machines for learning, on top of our machines for living, here in our modern city.

He remembers reading how during the modern revolutions a man could be locked inside a small metal cage, with no room to stand up, no room to sit down or stretch; he had to crouch, permanently cramped within his backbreaking prison.

At lunchtime, news of the changes ran like wildfire through the office, as everyone struggled to make sense of a brave new world that had such people in it. He heard someone say, ‘It’s like I left home this morning, and now I’m back, someone has re-decorated the whole house.


Outlaw Humans

He was one who was gifted, extraordinary, exceptional; one who would one day ...


And as the outlaw human walks tall through the endless corridors of the modern city, blessed by God and very much himself (finally…), he becomes suddenly aware that he will be discovered by the management killers, by the arm of the law of conformity, by the arm of the law of mediocrity, and charged with being too wise, too satisfied, too much at peace; too much himself. And condemned to death.

Yes, he was one of those whom Nietzsche called 'atavars': one who stood head and shoulders above the rest, because he wasn’t in any way like the rest. He embodied the spirit of a former age: he walked tall as a titan among mortal men. 

A lone lighthouse in a storm-tormented sea, he stood firm where time and tide beat always against him.

A lonely ghost, doomed to drag his ancient chains screaming through the metal corridors of the modern city.

He was one who was gifted, extraordinary, exceptional; one who would one day either achieve greatness, or go mad and die alone.

Die alone. The words sound like a drowned bell. Maybe he will die alone: unshaven, unapplauded, and unmourned (and who can bear to be forgotten). Like a faded star, all forlorn in a broken bed-sit. Absently fingering old photographs. Half-buried in yellow newspapers. Feebly stumbling in tattered trousers, filthy vest and knitted skull-cap […]